Hi everyone,
You have no idea how happy I was to find out that I was "normal" and that there IS a label for what I have. My mom told me just the other day, after I told her about the sight, that I have had a FEAR of being ill since I was 18months old and I am 24 now.
It lead me to going through an episode of anorexia when i was 16-18. Not only was I afraid to be sick but I was afraid of food a)making me fat and b)I thought if I didn't eat them at least there was nothing in my stomach to come back up.
When I was little my mom said I was sick at my nana's and I just freaked out. We had any treatable problem until I went the doctors about 3 years ago. I had also developed agoraphobia and it was making it hard for me to go out ANYWHERE. I could not go to restraunts in case something made me ill or someone got ill. I could not go to the clubs because people drank there and became sick. I wouldn't go near anywhere where there were rides.
It got real bad when one day someone had been sick on the sidewalk by my apartment building I couldn't leave the apartment. I was gaining weight and loosing my life. I coud'dn't go our without having some panic attack. I remember how as soon as it was mentioned we were going somewhere I would get the sweats and start feeling ill. ESPECIALLY if I didnt get to drive.
Since I met my husband, who is very understanding and I know now that I am not the only one things are getting better. My husband and I moved out of the city to rural area and that has helped.
Since then I made it through my pregnancy and surviving motherhood.
I recently discovered that my sister and brother (they are related by blood but I am not) have similar problems.
I hope that there will be some way to cure this but I know that just knowing that there are others makes it easier to accept.
Thanks for listening and being there. I have this sight on my favorites.
Be well be strong and stay happy