I could really use some help right now from people who understand.
I've been emetophobic since I was 9. I'm now 29. I have a husband and a daughter who will be 2 in the spring. I didn't have much morning sickness, and I didn't v* during labor, so really my fears have been concentrated around her getting sick.
Friday night she got her first sv*. My husband cared for her while I panicked downstairs. I listened to the Clough overcoming emetophobia track that night, and I think I was actually a little better the next day -- I was able to nurse her even though I knew she was possibly still contagious, and when she v*d in the car that day, I didn't have a panic attack!
But then my husband got sick with it this evening and I completely lost it. I was literally ready to run away and leave my husband and precious child forever. I don't know what to do anymore. It's making me wish I'd never had a child, and that is so sad because she is so important to me.
I also would love some opinions...a week or so ago, I woke up in the night with d* and chills and was convinced I would be sick, but I didn't. It didn't last long and then I went to bed and was fine the next day. Any chance that's what my daughter caught 2 days ago and what my husband had today? Because if so, maybe I don't have to worry as much about catching it.
Thanks in advance for any support you can offer. I'm getting desperate