I fear being sick more than death. honestly. every day i monitor how 'sick' i feel. I often wake up feeling a bit yucky, then I panic because I fear it will get worse. On a bad day, I can't eat and I kind of gag when I do feel sick, which only adds to my anxiety. I'm paranoid about hygiene, wash my hands a million times a day, don't trust food, don't trust others handling food, I freak out if anyone preparing foods coughs, I worry about my little boy being sick, I fear every night that that's going to be the night one of us is sick. It's all consuming.
I take Dramamine tablets if I do feel sick as I am terrified of being sick, and I always have a supply of them at hand.
I won't ever go on a cruise, cos I get seasick. I am anxious on a plane, or on a bus and I have to 'dope up' on dramamine before I fly or travel anywhere.
When my son gets sick, which is a couple times a year given he's only young, I handle it, for his sake, but inside I am freaking out. I get angry at mums who send their kids to school still infectious.
I won't drink more than two glasses max of wine, and even then I worry a bit. I won't eat anything 'dodgy' or if the place looks unclean. I hate touching public door handles, trollies, etc. I hate public toilets and will avoid using them if I can
I worry about everything, all day. I wouldn't eat if I wasn't starving, which also makes you feel sick so you have to eat to stop feeling sick sometmies, dont u.
Why am I like this? Diarrorhea doesnt bother me, so why does being sick? If I heear something is going round, I get very anxious and 'plan' to be ill in two days time where I won't make any plans
I've had two really bad experiences years ago being sick. One was an awful stomach bug, and the other was being very seasick on a boat, whale watching, where I was in agony for about an hour then sick over another passenger before I made it overboard
Wish I wasn't bothered but i am, all the time
Help x