Well, I have been having panic attacks lately that are so bad I feel so nauseated and they won't go away until I'm back home(even with medication). Now I'm afraid to leave the house but only to go a couple minutes away. I've been debating whether to give up my cleaning job for now. I have a friend that said she would fill in. I just don't want to worry all week long whether I will be able to do it for one, have a panic attack on the way there and have to cancel-thus letting them down, or worst of all-having one there so terrible that I'd have to suffer all the way home and be embarrassed for leaving in the middle of it. I just feel like being upfront and telling them what's going on right now and taking a break to figure out what's up with my anxieities and try to get better. I know what's up-ememtophobia-I'm constantly thinnking about if this or that will make me get sick, every little twinge, thought, smell makes me feel nauseated and afraid. The only real safe place is in my home.
I'm trying not to be a big baby but I've been letting those close to me know how bad my anxieities have gotten-can't really hide it when you can't leave your house and people have been surprisingly supportive-they don't necessarily know what to say. I wish someone knew what to say though, cause I want to get better again-don't want to be afraid to leave my house. Want to be free!!!