I just feel like s* today!! I had a very good day yesterday, I went shopping, then I spend the evening with my neighbors, and we had a bon fire at night. I did not drink any alcohol, just water, they ordered pizza, I had a couple bites of it, but I didn't care for it so I made myself a peanut butter and jelly. I woke up this morning feeling horrible. My stomach has been upset all day, and I have a headache, and I just feel really worn out. My neighbors are all fine. They all had the pizza, and no one is sick. But I feel like I have been hit by a bus. Why does it seem as soon as things look up, they all of a sudden fall apart? I am just so sick of it. I had such a great time, and barely even thought about v*. Now every joint in my body aches. Even my hands are hurting while I type. I thought it was from to much sun, but I was only in the sun for about 2 hours, and it was around 6pm, so I didn't even burn or anything. I am just so sick of feeling good, then feeling horrible. I mean how am I suppose to get over this phobia if one day its all good, then the next I fall right back into the same feelings. I just don't get it. Will it ever get better? I was invited to go out with my neighbors next weekend to the bar, and I am going no matter how I feel. I just am so sick of this. I feel so nausous, that I have only eaten about 10 crackers today. I wish this would just go away.
Thanks for listening, I just really needed to vent.
Michele