Hi all

Back in october last year i got pregnant (By rape i may add as the rest of what i will say will make you judge me) I decided my best option was to have an abortion i also done it because i was so scared i was going to V* Threw morning S* HOW SELFISH & PATHETIC AM I?!!! Yes i do regret my decision everyday and i know i am a bad person for this if i could turn back time i would this phobia is beating me more everyday!

But right I Am pretty sure i am going to be pregnant when i take a test (got to wait till the 29th to took a test) I Want a child so much but i am physically to afraid to v* how pathetic am i?

If i am pregnant i am keeping it i will force myself to keep it...

I'm tempted to ask my doctor for anti sickness meds anyone got any ideas on how to cope if i am?

Thank you all

Sorry if i offended anyone by abortion talk i know its a very touchy subject amongst many and as i said i regret my decision and i know i am a bad person for it Sorry x