If anyone could please help me or give me some reassurance or just anything, I would be so grateful - I'm worrying so much, I feel I am making myself ill
So I am usually very much on the edge at all times re the phobia and getting s*. I went away camping this weekend with friends which was a big step for me and got so worried when I returned on Sunday evening because I had somehow convinced myself that I would get s* in the days following my weekend away. It is now Wednesday and nothing has happened yet but today at work I think that has changed it for me.
I have posted previously about my job which is working with nursery children - I go to different nurseries in the surrounding areas of where I live and provide short fitness/exercise classes. Today, one of the nurseries I went into had a sign on the door - "15 confirmed cases of s*/d* - of course I immediately freaked but I had to carry on and walk right in there which was SO SO hard. My curiosity got the better of me and I asked the staff about it and they said that more adults than children had been affected (this was my first cause for panic because it means I am automatically more susceptible to it). Then they told me that just previous to me arriving, one of the staff in the room I was teaching in had just v* and been sent home (panic overdrive no.2). I then go upstairs to teach the 2nd class, using hand sanitiser inbetween (it is not a branded one so not sure on how effective it is) and at the end of the class, they mention that the bug has now spread to this room too (via siblings etc) and that they were to be extra vigilant with anti bacteria spray/disinfecting etc. But they were told to do this just as I was leaving so perhaps their cleaning of surfaces etc had been lacking.
Since this morning when this happened, I have been terrified. My stomach has been playing up feeling sort of acidic and just nervous I guess? and I am trying to convince myself that that is all it is - a nervous tummy. But what if it isn't? I know it would be too early to contract anything but what if I am already getting s* from something else?
And what if I do get it - how long will it be before I notice symptoms?
When I got home after teaching, I washed my hands thoroughly several times and disinfected props and equipment that I had been using and that the children may have touched or had been on the floor. Someone please help me, I am at a complete loss. I feel also that I will get s* as a punishment particularly as I have plans for this Saturday - I have previously struggled with depression and sometimes these two things link in my mind. If anyone could please offer any support, I would be so grateful. xx