Haven't felt this bad for years!

[Ana Bellini]

(I just realized that the title is wrong... I wish I could change it).

It all started yesterday. I had many nightmares, and woke up between them, nauseous, then slept again. When I finally woke up yesterday, I was feeling so tired, so bad, that I thought I was going to v. I spent the whole day with anti-emetics and didn't v. Okay. Today I woke up worse than yesterday, with sore throat and earache. Went to therapist, she calmed me down for a few moments. Then it was time to go to school (I study in afternoons). I couldn't miss school today because I had a test to do, so I went CRYING, and got distracted during the two first classes. A few minutes after History started, I felt bad again, really bad. I went to talk to the school therapist, but she was busy, so she gave me water with sugar and I went back to class. During the break, I visited the therapist and felt better, but then I went back to class and felt all nauseous again. I had to wait my mother for 30 minutes, then I came back home almost crying, fearing I would v. I'm still scared, but at least I'm home (and locked in my bathroom).

I feel dead, I'm pale as a ghost, and nauseous. I had my meals as always. What can it be? I begged my mother to take me to a doctor tomorrow, because I know I won't rest until I find out what is wrong with me. I just don't want to v, anything, anything, but I don't want to v...

Please, say something, even if it's just "You'll get better". I can't talk to my mom about it because she's sick of this story. She thinks I'm stronger than my fear, but I know I'm not. I feel so miserable, I just want to curl and cry for hours.

[kam00096]

Hey! If you're eating you're most likely fine. Sounds like a lot of panicking which can make you feel awful and maybe a cold as well. How are you doing now?

[claire43]

Its tough when you feel so awful. You say youve managed to eat as normal which is a good sign. Im sure its the anxiety making everything seem so much worse. I bet all you need is a good nights sleep & you'll be feeling much better.

[Ana Bellini]

Thank you girls.

I'm still in the bathroom, and I'm going to have dinner. I'm hungry, but I don't want to eat, but my parents will force me. Anyway, there were some moments that I was so sure I was going to v*, but then the feeling was gone. The fact that I'm eating isn't a great sign. Before I get sick I eat normally, just the last time I refused to eat. I'm afraid that if I eat something I'm going to v*.

Can anxiety really make me this bad?

[Ana Bellini]

Just to tell you girls: I went to the doctor today and she said I have some kind of virus. It may be gone in the next few days, but I might v*.

[Natiebear]

Doctors always say its a virus when they don't know what it is. I think it's just anxiety if you are still able to eat. My sister who is a nurse even jokes about how anytime a doctor doesn't know for sure what it is they call it a virus. Just eat lite and try and relax.