Hi everyone,
I just joined this site today, due to the fact that my phobia is really starting to drag me down. Just a few hours ago, my sister V*, and I had a breakdown as I normally do when someone gets sick.
As I was frantically grabbing my stuff and running away, my mom began to yell at me and tell me how stupid I was acting. My family has never understood why I am Emetophobic and I don't think they ever will. My family, (often my mother) will tell me that I'm crazy and that I need mental help, and they don't try to understand how I am feeling. It's been rough today, especially due to the fact that I am home schooled, so I can't even focus on my school work properly due to my sister's illness.
I feel angry with myself because I've said harsh things today to my sister about her being sick, even though I know that she can't help it. I feel like a monster, a selfish monster. I can't get my family to understand where I am coming from which makes matters worse. On top of that, I live in a VERY small home, so I can't get that far away from my sick sister.
Right now I'm keeping my self sane by trying to get some school work done on my macbook and watching TV with my rabbits. This is turning out to be a very bad day