Well I will catch you all up on me.... I got laid off from my job of 15 years in August. I have been on unemployment and looking for a job since then. Well 2 weeks ago I totaled my car. So now I have NO vehicle to drive to look for a job. I did not have rental on my insurance and I had a title loan against my car so the insurance company had to pay that off before giving me the money for my car. Since my car was a 2002 I didn't get much money. My anxiety levels are off the charts. I lost my insurance and I am having difficulty getting Medicaid so a Dr visit seems to be out of the question. I called my doctor and explained to her how bad the anxiety was, and asked if she could up my xanax since all the anxiety meds I have tried have given me really bad side effects. She refused. I went to vote yesterday and stod in line in an elementary school for 4 hours and 45 minutes. I got up today with severe nausea. So bad that my mouth was watering. I took a Phenergan. It helped. I ate supper (a no no) but nothing greasy, small steak on the grill very well done, baked potato, and a small salad. I forgot today was my moms birthday so I had to go to the store to get her a gift. While I was there I had severe d* and the nausea came back full force. So I got a Sprite and took a xanax and another Phenergan. Now I am playing the waiting game and the what has caused this game... My anxiety is through the roof and I feel as if I am beconing agorophobic. I had a small sub yesterday for lunch and a potted meat sandwich for supper. My fiancee said he thinks it was the potted meat. I think it was the sub. Hopefully I can keep from v*ing I can suck it up for the d* and I will not take anything for that so I will get whatever is setting off this will get out of my system that way. My middle daughter has had FP before (twice) and she said she only v* 2-3 times and felt loads better after doing that. I told her she was a very brave person. I think if I know for a FACR that I would just do it 2-3 times I could survive, but I don't function like that. Once I start v*ing I can't stop.... something is wrong with me.