I'm so sorry to hear about all that is going on right now, and with all that stress, old habits will come back, especially the feeling of having control over something. Is it possible to see a therapist or doctor to help you through this? Is there anyone you can talk to? Sometimes it just helps to be able to talk it all out. Try to fight your urges to go back to your food controlling, I know it's hard, but you know this won't be good for you, especially if you have health concerns. I hope you are able to find some help.