Last Sunday middle of the night my dad came down with the SV. We have an unwritten rule that no one is ever to V in my bathroom, but yea, I woke up at 2am to him doing that in my bathroom, which shares a wall with my bedroom. Needless to say, i grabbed my comforter and went to my boyfriends, where I have been ever since last Sunday.
My mom told me I was being dramtic, but I wanted nothing to do with that house. Tuesday my best friend comes down with it (keep in mind her and I are 200 miles apart, but just hearing about it freaked me out.
Thursday morning I wake up at my bf's with a text message from my dad that my mom came down with it too, and had been V from midnight until 8am.
I've spent this while week freaking the hell out.
I went home Weds to just get some clothes and made some food my mom had made me monday night. Just being in the house the day my mom got sick makes me freak out. Eating food she cooked (it was only pesto pasta), before she starting V. I mean, I could just die of fear.
I'm eating bland for fear I might come down with this. I know its going around and seriously Its my BIGGEST FEAR. I lay in bed negoating with g-d to please not let this happen to me. According to my crazy caluculations, my dad got sick sunday, my mom got sick wednesday and if I can make it though till tomorrow morning I wont have got it from them. I want to go home. The house keeper has already come on friday, and noone has thrown up since Thursday morning. I obviously will still be sanatizing everything.
This fear of mine developed when I was 5 from a insitant with the SV, I turn 27 in 2 weeks and I have *knock on wood* not thrown up since then. I always thought I would out grow this, but it rules me at times like these. I cant care for anyone when they are sick, I live in such fear of catching this its debilitating during flu season. How am I ever going to have kids? Seriously????
I am just praying I make it though the night. I am soooo sick of being this scared.
I am new to this forum, i needed to reach out to someone that can genuinly feel my pain.
I even stupidly thought in my head a few weeks ago.... "Maybe i'm getting better, since I havent freaked out about this in a while".