I am getting to the point with my phobia right now, where I feel like it is ultimately ruining my life. I feel sick every single day. And I'm not exaggerating. My stomach is constantly upset, or I don't have an appetite, or I'm just nauseous for no reason, or for reasons unbeknown to me. Like today, a typical day for me is waking up feeling horrible right from the get go. I wake up either extremely anxious about how I'll be feeling, or I'll wake up nauseous or having to have a bowel movement right away/stomach cramping. Sometimes I'll go to the bathroom and that will somewhat relieve my feelings, but most of the time I am nauseous for a great deal of my morning. My hunger pangs are associated with nausea. Whenever I get hungry I am also nauseous, which makes it really hard to determine what I should do. If I eat, I normally have a stomach ache directly after, or shortly after my stomach will be really gurgly or I will have gas/bloating that makes me nauseous, where I absolutely have to let it out or I will feel horrible. I find myself constantly having to burp, or chew mint gum to even feel somewhat of a relief. Sometimes I will have really unusual soft stools, and sometimes they will make me feel better, and other times I feel worse after them. But I am nauseous for about 75% of my day, and it's mostly in the morning and right before I go to bed. Currently I am having a major anxiety attack. I've felt off all week, stomach viruses are going around, every time I eat I feel sick, and my stomach just feels super achy and tender all the time and I always feel like crap. I don't know what to do. Friends and family of mine keep telling me that it's all in my head, but why would I purposely make myself feel like this everyday? I'm starting to wonder if I'm not allergic to something I'm eating, or if I've developed some form of IBD like Crohn's disease or ulcerative colitis. I also looked into H. Pylori infection and peptic ulcers which describe some of my symptoms but haven't been to the doctor yet for it because all these tests they have to run are very expensive, and not only that but one is an endoscopy (kind of my worst nightmare) and the other would be a barium. I wanna feel better. I wanna feel good and not constantly be questioning what's wrong with me today and the next day. I've also lost weight and in part I think that's because I never have an appetite so I never want to eat, but also I considered it maybe being a tapeworm. There's a lot of different possibilities, and there's always the idea that I'm doing this all to myself. Either way I need help. It's ruining my life, I can't go on feeling like this very day of the week. It's too much, I can't do it. I need answers of I need help.