Hi, first time poster here, and in a state of panic.
I have emetophobia, although i dont think i have it as bad as a lot of people, i think its quite mild in comparison to some others.
The only thing I worry about is being in a situation where someone v* and i dont have a way out. I dont feel the need to wash my hands all the time, i dont activley avoid situations where someone might v*, but when someone does, its game over.
I go to the pub quite a lot but i never drink more than one pint and i always leave before others get too drunk.
Anyway, i went out tonight expecting one pint and back before 10. turns out i had a really good time, seeing lots of people i havent seen for years and meeting lots of new people. at around half 10 i bumped in to a friend who i hadn't seen for a few months. he seemed totally sober to me, holding a normal conversation and seemed normal. about half an hour later i told him i was going home (he lives near me) and he said he would come too.
We walked out of the pub and he headed in the direction of the quickest route to walk home. I said "come this way, ive got my car, were you going to walk home?" and he said "no, im too pissed" Warning barriers went up. I'd been around drunk people all night but if he was in my car i wouldnt be able to get out if he was sick.
Next thing i know he walked over to a wall, bent over and v*.
I turned around and LEGGED it to my car as fast as i could and drove home. I just left my friend in the middle of the street, whats wrong with me?
Also, during the night when we were talking he was breathing on me, what if he was ill not because he was drunk but because he had a virus, and now ive got that virus?
I now remember why i never used to go out, and i wont be going out again.