Re: Trying not to have a panic attack!!
The panicking, then relaxing, then panicking, makes it sound more like you are having really bad anxiety than a sv* or fp*. If you had either of those, you'd have pretty steady n* going on. Did you have a bad experience during a previous holiday season? Maybe you're worrying over repeating the past. I tend to build things up in my head, too, like, "Oh, it's (insert holiday here), I CAN'T get sick or I'm going to ruin it for everyone!" Could be that you are doing that. Just try to relax, take your anti-emetic of choice if you absolutely need to, and nibble on something bland. Doesn't sound like a sv*. Good luck.
"I'm not saying that I know what I want. . .
But I know what I don't, don't want to rot in my room. And never know what could have been, believe what everyone else tells me is true."