Re: Anxiety versus Real Symptoms
This was one of those questions I really wrestled with for the longest time and sometimes I still really have to question myself. First I think it's important to be clear that sometimes the n* that comes along with anxiety is "real nausea". I've definitely experienced that before... but at the same time, it's totally different than the feeling you get with an illness. It's so hard to explain, but here's a small try... when I was sick a couple years ago, I KNEW I was sick. The thought of food made me ill and there was this EXTREME n* that simply cannot be explained. And the thing is, when it got to that point, I didn't care about v*ing... honestly. And seriously it's hard for even me to admit that, but no really... at that exact point when I knew it was inevitable I all but forced it, because that's how extreme the feeling was and how badly I wanted it to end. So even though the n* that often comes with anxiety is "real", it's not the same.
And there are other types of n* too. I mean there was last April when I got sick from my antibiotics. The n* was just as extreme, but totally different... like I could feel it in my head and deep down in my bones. It was a totally different experience because I knew I wasn't really "sick" and I felt that if my body could get rid of the medicine I would be okay, and clearly my body thought the same thing because my mind and my body fought like hell *trust me on that* to get rid of it -- it was only the second time in my whole life I prayed to v*, but that time there was nothing there because again, it wasn't an illness, totally different... and because it was already in my system at that point there wasn't anything that could be done. Thankfully after about an hour I was able to drive to walgreens and get some emetrol, and the whole time all I wanted was Dr. Pepper... so between the two I finally felt better!
But yeah... so I think the point I guess is you will know! I've had plenty of times where thinking about food made me feel queasy and absolutely nothing was wrong with me... so I don't even think that always works. I think it's anxiety A LOT...
*The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.* -- M. Scott Peck