I hate this so much I'm so scared al the time. I remember very specifically the last time I didn't actually throw up but I gagged and retched and it was so horrible and gross but I remember specifically thinking "that's IT.??? Why have a feared this my whole life!?!?" Then less than a week later my horrible fear came back. WHY did it have to come back??? How in the world can someone face their fear and feel better then fear it worse again Later???? I can't handle this anymore I just don't see why it has to work that way I feel like there's no hope once again