Despite my medications, I'm constantly paranoid. I had to cut back because the pills make me too drowsy but they help. But if I don't take enough it's like I might as well not take them. I'm prescribed 2 mg of kolonopin and 30 mg of remeron. Since I been having this belly pain all week it has made my nerves shot. I just had a major panic attack over my son. Nothing has happened knock on wood. But he was making noises in his sleep. I know he does that sometimes but he will also do that before he v in his sleep. I'm so paranoid right now. We haven't really been anywhere to be exposed. But I can't keep that thought out of my head. I'm so scared he's gonna be sick. He didnt show any signs but he never really has in the past. I just don't want to fall asleep and wake up to a sick kid. Plus he's asleep with his older brother.
I hate night time. And I hate being a mother sometimes. I should never had any kids but I didn't take any precautions and I wouldn't trade them for anything. But my fear is only worse since I do have kids.
I'm such a mess. I really feel like I'm going completely mental right now.