I really feel like I'm going crazy. I went to see my doctor yesterday and he switched my meds from Remeron to Celexa. I went to the pharmacy twice yesterday and each time I went I was told it'll be an hour and a half wait. I don't know if its gonna help, nothing seems to help except for taking too much to just make me pass out.
It got worse last night when my husband texted me that the guy he works with has been V all day and his whole family has it. I try to calm myself down and think maybe it was FP, although I really doubt it. So to help myself I disinfected my house eventhough it wasn't even near my house. But I'm scared my husband is gonna get it because he gets sick just by someone saying their sick. And I'm scared he's gonna bring it in the house. He's not suppose to come home but he does anyway sometimes. He's suppose to stay at his location for the full 2 weeks but he's like 45 minutes to the house so he'll come home sometimes. I just hope he doesn't come home to be sick. It's all I can think about. It's ruining me. I wish I could be like most people and not care. But I'm not like that. I terrified to get sick and even more I'm terrified to see my kids be sick. I wish I could go hide away somewhere.