Okay so you may recognise me, i always disappear for months then suddenly come back to the site and post loads.

I don't know how much longer i can deal with this, whenever i think i'm getting better something happens (Like tonight) and i am RIGHT back to where i started and have to start all over again. It's exhausting, i'm missing so much college so i'll probably fail my exams and not get in to university this year. It's my 18th birthday tomorrow and i'm going to be spending it terrified and uncomfortable in bed. I'm ripping my family apart too, my parents always argue about me and my mum can't deal with me anymore and we are constantly screaming at each other.

I've been doing CBT for 6 months and i've tried hypnotherapy. Nothing is helping me and i'm just about ready to give up!

I'm sorry for posting i just really need to talk to people who understand