I usually take the subway home but I am feeling very claustrophobic so I decided to use buses & streetcars. I feel like I'm choking and I'm so hot and I just want to be home on my chair in the living room, cuddling my dog. I hate feeling like this. I was supposed to meet someone on the way home and had to lie (again) about why I couldn't join her. And the stupid thing is I felt FINE this morning. I just want to curl up in a ball on the floor of this streetcar. It would probably less embarrassing than v*ing. And my common sense is telling me that it's just panic that's making me feel like this but my brain won't listen. And now we're stuck in traffic. Great.