So despite this horrible fear that consumes a lot of us... I have been feeling a lot better lately.. Getting out of the house, going out to eat, bowling, etc.. however, tonight I panicked and idk why. All my friends and I decided to go bowling. I was fine there. I had some cheese pizza and half a drink. Not much at all. When bowling was over I suddenly felt the urge to use the bathroom, a little d* feeling but I decided to ignore it. Everyone decided they wanted to go to the casino afterwards so I agreed. However, the whole ride there I felt my anxiety building. I kept thinking what if I get a stomach ache and v*? I started getting hot and my palms were sweating. By the time we got to the parking lot and I saw how crowded it was I actually gave myself a stomach ache and had to use the bathroom even more.... to stop it ALL off... as we were parking in the corner of my eye I seen a man standing in the corner Puk*ing his guts out. I couldn't believe it. Long story short I lasted in the casino about 10 mins before I asked my cousin and bf if we could leave. I felt so bad and embarrassed but I literally freaked out.

Finally got home and used the bathroom. Feeling much better now but still a little uneasy. I wish this fear would just STOP.