Okay so today I went to a surprise party for my friend's 18th birthday.
However, she has six brothers and sisters and all but one are younger
than her so it had a really young theme. It was sponge bob cake and
decorations. Three of her brothers and sisters were under 10 and her
little brother had a friend over who was also that age so I did plenty
of helping out with little kids today, which is unusual for me because
I only have one sibling and he's 16.

One of her sisters also mentioned several times that she threw up the
day before. I did watch her like a hawk and make sure she didn't touch
anything I planned to eat but I didn't leave the party. I skipped lunch
but I did have cake.



Afterward her and I and our friends who were there went out to play
mini golf and then we went to the movies and then to dinner. I
volunteered to drive everyone since I was the only one who had their
car there and was allowed to have passengers. So I drove these peope
all around knowing that I'd have to drop them off at her house before I
went to my own even if it was an "emergency". At the end of the night I
even ate chicken fried rice at the chinese restaurant.



When I got home I figured I'd earned an emet indulgence. For the past
few days I've felt mildy sick, like with a cold and my ears have been
hurting and felt full. So I made my dad look at them with the otoscope
and he said there was some and I quote "crap" behind the ear drum. I
asked him if he thought it was mucus or pus and he just said he didn't
know because they look alike. Anyway the point is that I'm worried I
have an ear infection because whenever I had one as a kid I always v*ed
a lot. It may just be a cold but I don't have any nasal congestion so
that's why I'm not convinced it is. My throat has been a little sore
but not as much as I usually get with a cold. The worst part is that I
can't do anything until I actually have an ear infection and I'm afraid
that by then it will be too late to avoid v*ing.



So today has been a good one in which I really fought this phobia well
but it's also bad because I'm scared now. I'm scared about my ears. I'm
a little scared about the one sister because what if she had a sv
instead of just ya know childhood stomach problems. I'm also worried
because I'm so tired, I have a little headache, and my legs hurt.
Although I know that those last three are probably just the effects of
the day because I arrived for the party at 11 this morning and got home
at 9:30 tonight.

Anyway, I'm rambling now. What do you guys think? Am I losing my mind?


Edited by: chicajojobe