Lacey, I've already told you, talk to me if you want. However, I think, like you said, that you need serious help. Not that I'm complaining, but you've been creating so many threads lately when either you're worried or sick. You're 14 - there are so many good things to do instead of hanging around on a forum!

People don't carry germs like that. Normal people aren't filthy, they just don't wash their hands 20 times a day.

I know that episode must have felt bad, but it's time to let it go. Talk to your therapist. Talk to your psychiatrist. DON'T HARM YOURSELF - wounds may get infected and you don't get anything with it.

Eat.

Live, Lacey.