As I read your posts, I discover that I am not alone in all my little rituals. I have to smile sometimes and say, "I'm not the only one!" Today is one of those days. I babysat my granddaughter last night around 8:00. My son called this morning and said she started to v....at 12:30. She was perfectly fine when she was here! Needless to say, I am trying to keep my anxiety at bay. Do you think that I'll get it? Right now I am debating whether to go for my anxiety medicine, but I hate to do that. I just wish I didn't have this phobia. It takes over my life! When my kids were small, it didn't seem so bad. In the last few years, it has gotten so bad. By the way, I am 63 years old. Thanks for all the kind words you offer people here.