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[mystikal star]

So I've got a couple of things I wanted to say today. Hehe


Last night while on the phone with my boyfriend, I told him that I felt sick and didn't want to v. He knows I fear v but hasn't really said much of it. Last night after I said that he goes, "I dont know why you fear it so much. There isn't anything to be afraid. All it is is the food you've eaten that's in your stomach." This infuriated me. I told him it wasn't about that. I cannot v because I dont want to lose control of my body like that ever again. I was humilated in front of thousands of people when IV at the hockey game. So Ving for me isnt just about ving. Its about losing control, being humilated and feeling powerless. I feel powerless all the time when I'm sick, even if it's just with a cold. I cannot be sick in any way or I feel weak (mentally) and powerless. Anyone else feel this way?


And now, my stomach is killing me. I woke up with stomach pains. It only hurts when I stand up to walk or when I move around sitting. I've been farting all morning since I've woken up. I think it could be gas. It hurts so bad I can barely stand up straight. I hate have belly aches. This ache isnt in my intestinal area like I would think gas would be. It's in my stomach so what if I V from it!!!

[SimplyMe]

Gas can move around and feel higher than it is, you may have to burp some too but you won't v from gas. Sorry your b/f wasn't understanding. I'm sure it is hard for nonemets to understand what we go thru when we even feela twinge much less when we feel ill it's still annoying and hurtful tho not to be understood. Maybe you could fill him in better at a time when youa rent' feeling ill and can have a calm talk? Hope you feel better!

[tiny_brown_bird]

I'm in the middle of a similar situation, minus the boyfriend. I've
been feeling a little funky in my stomach (okay, really funky) for
the past few days with a few bouts of diarrhea, a low-grade fever,
and headaches. I'm pretty sure it's something viral, which is what I
fear, of course. In the back of my mind, I know that I'd feel better if I
just... erm.... let it out, but... ya know. Like you, I get the feeling that
my fear of letting sickness overcome me has something to do with
loss of control. This really sucks, too because I've missed two days
of class and I know anyone else would have just gotten sick, felt
better, and just kept on going to their classes. I feel a bit childish
and silly, even though I know emet (and any other phobia) is
something pretty serious and not just some goofy thing that can
easily be helped. I do feel a little calmer about it than I have in the
past, though. In fact, I kinda just want it to happen, you know? I
know that one day I WILL overcome this, and maybe finally allowing
myself to get sick again could help me take another step in that
direction. It's tough, isn't it?

[mommyof3]

So...how are you both feeling today?

[bexcelica]

i hate to hear (or read) people say things like this. i wish we could
all just be okay. this sucks. im sorry any of us have to ever go
through this b*s*. i hope you guys feel better, i wish i had a magic
wand that made us all better