This has happened twice now. I went to my cousin's house and one of them has, quote from my cousin, "a bug." She said she was feeling queasy and she had a sore throat, and then we had afternoon tea. Not washing her hands, of course, she touched all the food despite her queasiness. My mum and sister ate the food that she touched, AND I HUGGED HER before she said that she was sick. I can't eat or sleep. I have overwhelming warm prickles of fear when I think about it. My holidays just started and I do not want to deal with this now. I've been trying so hard lately to get past my anxiety, but each day there's something that keeps my panic attacks rolling on. Like yesterday, I went to the city to see Christmas lights, and it was as crowded as Beijing there. So many people were coughing and pushing and shoving. I just can't do it anymore. I had a life.