So tonight is the night. We are going to that standing room only concert tonight. I have been in such a foul mood about it. I'm on the verge of tears. I almost got into a little argument with my husband over it this morning. I was hoping that we could drive ourselves to the show, but it looks like we are meeting at my brother-in-laws house and then getting dinner before the show! I think I am going to pop an Ativan for my anxiety. I'm already anxious as hell about it...I am realizing that I really don't like being in large crowds like that. When its a concert where you can sit, I don't mind it as much. I hate this phobia. This time of the year gives me the heebies too, not to mention this is in a bar setting. I'm crossing my fingers that I don't have to use the bathroom at all at this place because this place's bathrooms are disgusting .....I've packed my had sanitizer already and guess just gotta hope for the best. I hope this horror I'm picturing in my mind isn't as bad as I'm making it out to be. If I'm uncomfortable I can just step outside for a bit right? I really wish it was spring time and they days were longer. There is nothing worse for me than having this phobia, mixed with the cold, mixed with the days getting dark early. I really hate myself this time of the year....sorry to be a Debbie Downer, but you guys are the only ones who truly understand. I'm sure I will end up having a good time, it's just actually getting me out there is the tough part....