In my mind i sometimes think emetophobia is like an abusive person. It scares you, terrifies you, makes your life miserable and restricts everything you can do. But its all you know and you don't quite know how to survive without it. But you can.
If you can live with this awful awful problem, and be strong enough to still wake up every day, then surely you are strong enough to do anything. Especially to survive without it. I Don't know if i can be cured, i do know that i can get my emet to a managable level. Whereby i sometimes have panic attacks, but i can control them. It doesnt stop me from living my life and i feel free. I know this because its how i feel these days. My emet bothers me only when i really truely think i might V* If i do start to panic about feeling sick, i stop and i wonder why i am panicking and usually there is another cause than actually feeeling sick.
The panic response is a habit, it is familiar, its all you know how to do when you feel nauseated and thinking of coping a different way is scary. But you can do it, you can break the pattern of panicking.
It is a part of you, but it is not you. Everyone here has something else they can offer the world, something they can do. Different parts to their personality. But emetophobia will overshadow all that if you let it. I personally have learned a lot from the problems i have had, thats not going to go away just because i stop panicking every day.
One thing i always have to remind myself is that the point is not to get to a stage where i like V*, just to not let it control ANY aspect of my life. It can be done, and its new and its scary, but then whats the alternative?? To hide in the shadows for the lifetime and never show anybody what i have to offer? No thanks!!! I am worth more than that and so are each and every one of you.
I'm sure i had a point before i started rambling here, Oh yeah, Sometimes i dont want to let everything go, because isn't that what V* is like? Letting everything out. Stop trying to fight V*ing for the rest of your life and instead try and fight the panic and the terror that goes with it. You are all worth more than being known as "just an emetophobe"
Be courageous, believe in yourself, and be the best woman you can be. I'm with you all the way.