I am at my breaking point right now. I feel so discouraged. I try to have a good "non emet" day, I try to go out and do things that I would otherwise enjoy, but it somehow always ends up with n* or stomach discomfort of some sort. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me. I am in the middle of trying to get something figured out with my stomach. I've had stomach issues for about the past 4 to 5 years, and have not got a diagnosis. Every time I go get a test for something, it comes back negative. But I still feel *n ALL THE TIME. Even when I am trying to stay active and keep my mind off of it, I somehow end up feeling ill. Lately my stomach gets this horrible "knot" like feeling right under my ribcage/sternum, it is very sensitive to the touch, and always makes me feel bloated, n*, and completely uncomfortable. I am constantly on edge because I literally NEVER FEEL GOOD. This is an every day thing. Sometimes I think it's okay because it's actually something wrong with my digestive system, but then the more tests I have that come back negative, the more I wonder if my anxiety is the sole reason for all of this stomach discomfort, *n, and just a general awful feeling. I feel like I have nothing to look forward too, as every day is just a battle with myself and trying to figure out how to make it through one day without getting some kind of stomach ache or *n. I just want it to be over. I have completely lost interest in food, because every time I eat I seem to feel awful. I don't even look forward to my favorite foods, and eating is like a chore to me right now. I would rather just go the whole day without eating, but I can't because I'm already really skinny and cannot afford to lose weight. I have an ultrasound scheduled for my gallbladder Tuesday to see if maybe it is the culprit for this constant feeling of un-wellness and *n, and if that's not it, I'm feeling like I may have given myself a stomach ulcer from all of the stress I put myself under. I just want to be normal again, I want to live my life and be happy, and not dread each day and how I will feel. Am I really doing this to myself? I really hope not, because I don't know how to control it or make it stop. I need some encouragement. I feel like giving up. I can't imagine living my life like this for the next 10 or more years even...let alone 40 or 50. I need help. I can't afford therapy, and I'm afraid of what medicine to go on. How do you emets all get anti-nausea meds prescribed? I was taking dramamine when I needed but it's addictive and it causes bad restless legs for me so it keeps me up all night when I take it, which is not what I need when I am feeling sick and having anxiety on top of it. I'm just so sad with how my life has become at the moment, I need to know that this can get better, because it just keeps getting worse.