Re: Oh God...I'm n*
Originally Posted by
claire43
Butterfly91, mdgirl 1977 and sdfl thank you so so much for your kind words. sdfl, you are probably right but I don't see an end to the stress in the foreseeable future so I expect I'll be making a lot more of these panic posts. I apologise in advance. I do tend to keep my emotions bottled up. I feel I need to be strong for the other family members also closely affected by this. I also hate feeling vulnerable and out of control.
Claire, I'm so sorry that you are having to deal with so much. Panic-post away....we'll be here for you.
I know what you mean about being uncomfortable being vulnerable and that you are used to being the family rock for everyone
else to lean on. I too find it preferrable to being strong for everyone else because it's a distraction from having to confront my
own sadness or mourning-can't cry and be sad myself when there are others you need to be strong for, right? Aint nobody got
time for that! The bad thing is that even rocks have their breaking point and like SDFL said, you need to give yourself permission
to cry, be scared, etc because by not allowing yourself to feel your emotions, you are simply stifling them temporarily. They will
make themselves known and sometimes at the most inopportune times.
Again I'm so sorry for all the awful things you are dealing with. Sending you hugs!
Jennifer
“The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven..”
― John Milton, Paradise Lost