Just need to vent some of my anxiety with people who get it

[anxietygirltotherescue]

Hi all,

Its my least favorite time of year I just need to vent because nothing else seems to be working right now. I have had anxiety issues my whole life and emetophobia for the ten years.
I was ok until my sister came home from college last night and was up all night with what seems to be a bug. She hasnt told me how many times she has v* (i think shes afraid of how i will react) but I think it is mostly d*. That is the only thing that is keeping me somewhat sane, I can handle the d* better than the v* (obviously) Anyway, I'm just freaking out because I am worried about getting sick and I already have a cough so I am worried that my already weakened immune system wont be able to fight off this bug. I think I should be ok because my cleaning techniques and rituals are always amped up this time of year, but still...
Another part of me is that this virus will mutate and i will get the version that makes me v*
I also feel guilty because I am angry at my sister for getting sick and bringing the virus in contact with me. I know I am a terrible person for feeling this way, but all I can think is that this is her fault.
Sorry for the stream of consciousness, I just need to get it out there.

[mamabear93]

If she just has d* maybe she just ate something bad?
I know it's hard but think of best case scenario and switch ur thoughts =)