Actually, despite the title, I'm doing the best I have in her almost 5 years of life and sicknesses. She v*ed when I went to get her for dinner last night, and has been in bed since with a trash can by her side. This morning she's a lot better, still has a fever, but the V*ing has subsided, or at least it has seemed to. Last night I surprisingly was able to sit down and eat my dinner after my H and I cleaned her and the bathroom up. Normally, my stomach would turn from anxiety and I wouldn't be able to even look at food for awhile. I can't eat a whole lot, but the fact that I am eating, even a little, speaks volumes. I took a shower right after I got D to bed, and spend the night numbing my brain watching M*A*S*H and playing some Super Mario 3 on the NES (retro gaming really calms me for some reason), and I was able to get through the night and even sleep a little. D was able to take care of herself with minimal check ins. Her being old enough to make a trash can on her own really helps. I wash my hands like mad after every time I go in her room to check on her. Now I'm not so worried about H...he was a military man and seems to have an iron stomach...and he's a big boy and can take care of himself...we have a spare room so I can sleep there if I really feel the need but so far I'm ok. I'm really worried about myself. Though when it happens I can handle it, it's just the unknown "Will I, won't I" spiel on repeat in my head right now. Doing my best to keep my brain numb, but I have to go grocery shopping tonight and I'm so afraid it will happen when I'm out. Ugh! The other thought reeling in my head is do I really want another child? H and I have been talking about number 2 and it will happen sometime soon, but when the bug hits our house, I always second guess myself as to whether I will be able to handle two children v*ing. Also, I'm annoying the crap out of H and D because I check on D so much. I really wish there was a way to get over this...they both know I can't help it....D rolls her eyes and says "I'm fine Mom!" and H tells me to just use the monitor and stop going in there. I can't help myself...and I hate living like this.