Oh dear that sounds horrible i couldn't imagine what your going through! I know Yeah i didnt even have a name for the phobia untill i done research and realised it does actually have a name, i live with my mum at home and she works in A nursing home last week the full nursing home had the v*+d* bug and i was past myself when she came home and told me about it i was bleaching everything she touched and still felt like nothing was clean i felt I had no control are you getting any help or anything? I dont know if this will help but at the minute I'm doing the thrive programme it's called cure your emetaphobia & thrive its like the man who wrote the book knows how us emetaphobes think i think it's worth a try it isn't to pricey either,