Really, really struggling

[LittleFlo]

Not going to waffle on but basically I get the verdict in court on Thursday regarding my abusive ex.

And my stomach is in shreds.

I mean, I have gone through nerves before with other things and felt a little n* and the butterflies and the adrenaline...

But nothing in my life has ever compared to this event, and I feel really s* to my stomach. To the point I could gag. And it's getting worse. Come Thursday I am just as worried about v* just before and/or after the verdict as I am about the verdict itself.

Guys has anyone here been through something so extreme and massive that they have felt the n* and gagging I do? This feels way worse than standard anxiety n* in comparison. Diazepam is helping a little but my doctor today said she was concerned about me getting addicted! All I need.

Any support always, always appreciated, you lovely lovely bunch x

[Chibinarwhal]

Yep, I've been in that exact same situation. When a good family friend died, I felt really guilty (I had no involvement in the death whatsoever, I just tend to feel awful about these things) and I feel very, very legitimately ill. It was so bad that I was taking a shower and I stopped the water thinking "oh god, I can't really be getting sick." I couldn't eat, and it took me a good 4 hours in bed before I could finally sleep. But, in the end, nothing happened. Once the guilt and crippling anxiety passed, I was perfectly fine. You'll be fine, dear, you just have to wait the feelings out.

[LittleFlo]

So sorry to hear that. It's awful to go through a trauma, but then the on top makes it worse.

[Mamafear]

Sweet, my heart is with you! I was just talking to my husband about this today! I get extremely anxious for 4-5 days prior to something big and I'm a mess, tearful, nauseated, cross, too tired to sleep, the whole nine yards. The best thing for me are childhood comfort techniques like warm milk and honey, hot water bottles, or a my laptop plugged in next to my bed playing soft rain, waves breaking, and even just a heartbeat, lol. Thinking of you hun. xx

[Mamafear]

Sweet, my heart is with you! I was just talking to my husband about this today! We've just been through a tough fortnight with out son being badly bullied (police involved) and I get extremely anxious for 4-5 days prior to something big and I'm a mess, tearful, nauseated, cross, too tired to sleep, the whole nine yards until the day of the event, and suddenly I'm so wired that I feel clear and calm. The best thing in the lead up to these things for me are childhood comfort techniques like warm milk and honey, hot water bottles, or a my laptop plugged in next to my bed playing soft rain, waves breaking, and even just a heartbeat, lol. Thinking of you hun. xx

[Syrup]

Yes, I dry heaved for a few days straight when I went through a situation 8 years ago. It was awful. Yes to everything mamafear said above. Gentle rain helped me. Don't worry about how much you're eating (I couldn't for a few days, I would gag putting anything to my mouth), and remember that this is temporary! So sorry that you're dealing with this.

[LittleFlo]

Thanks for your really kind and helpful messages.
He got not guilty.
I'm in bits, have barely eaten or slept in days.
Emet is at it's worst as I feel sick from not eating or sleeping.

[mdgirl1977]

I'm so sorry it ended this way. I wish I had the right words but I don't. I hope he leaves you alone and you are able to move past this. hugs.

[Hello_there]

i don't have any advice but i'm sorry to hear that and i feel for you. hugs as well

[LittleFlo]

Thanks guys..
Just want to find a way to be able to eat and sleep again at least.