Venting I guess???

[Elfgrrrl]

Okay,well hello. I'm new to this site. I'm Emily and I'm 15. I've had a fear of throwing up since I was like eight but in the last year or so it has worsened. Around last January I started having panic attacks pretty much daily after having the flu. I weighed 132 pounds at the time but by February I was 123. My panic attacks have slowed down a lot,I don't have them often anymore,but the fear is still there. I take medicine for my stomach. I don't eat after certain times and I don't eat certain things after certain hours. Not only do I always convince myself I'm sick,I also believe I've developed some sort of eating disorder. I haven't been diagnosed but the behaviors match mine. I've lost 20 pounds from doing nothing really. I eat about 1200-1500 calories a day. I'm constantly obsessing over my weight and over getting sick. I don't really know. Is this normal? Does anyone else deal with this? Sorry I explained this so badly. Thanks.

[Elfgrrrl]

*I would also like to add the reason I lost so much weight is because I wasn't eating. I feel like this post made no sense. My fear is so bad and I hate it. I /realize/ it's irrational but I can't help it. Once my sibling threw up and I didn't go in the room they were sick in for over a week. Once I left school early because this girl said she was sick. I want to not worry constantly about getting sick but I feel like that's impossible.

[tiredofitall]

I went through a similar situation in my early 20's. I too was unable to eat and I dropped to 96 pounds. It was a terrible time but as I got older (I am 49 now) the constant n and panic lessened significantly. I can not really explain why though. I never sought treatment for the anxiety but I did have several tests for the n and all were negative. I feel your frustration and am sorry I can not be more helpful. Welcome to the forum though. You will get lots of support here.

[Elfgrrrl]

Thank you so much!

[gumdropper1]

Venting is better than vomiting! Everything you said is normal ... for an emet. You probably don't need stomach medicine.