So right now it's about 5:30AM early Monday morning. I've been wide awake since 4AM, I woke up out of a dead sleep and immediately went into anxiety when I woke up and now I feel really uneasy, restless, and sort of nauseous, and just like something bad is going to happen. I wouldn't normally be so worried about waking up in the middle of the night except for the circumstances the past few days.
So on Saturday I was at work (I work as a bank teller) and it was about 11:30 AM when a member walked up to my window with their son. I didn't think anything of it at all and began to do the transaction. A few seconds later the little boy said to his dad in kind of a weird tone "dad I need to use the bathroom" and so the dad pointed to the bathroom door (it's in our lobby probably about 10-12 feet from my station). The little boy had the stomach flu the dad proceeded to tell me. The little boy started to cough a little bit but he kept the bathroom door open and the dad went in to turn on the light and shut the door. For the next 2-3 minutes I heard the little boy coughing and throwing up, all the while I was trying to concentrate on doing the transaction so I could just get them out of the branch. After about 2-3 minutes I was done with the transaction and the little boy came out from the bathroom and they left. About 2 minutes after that one of my co-workers got some Lysol disinfecting spray and sprayed the entire bathroom, the door knob, the sink and toilet and then left the bathroom door slightly open. As soon as I could I locked my drawer and went to the back to breathe. I could feel myself shaking and my heart was pounding. Another girl I work with is emetophobic too and she was back there with me freaking out just as much as I was. I worked until like 1PM and then went home. Ever since Saturday I have wondered if I was exposed to any of the vomit particles that were expelled. I'm worried they were floating through the branch shortly after it happened and I could've swallowed them or breathed them in.
So basically my emetophobic brain has told myself that I have like a 24-48 incubation period to wait for this to hit. I am counting from the time it happened (11:15-11:30) and 48 hours after to tell if it's going to happen to me too. It's really freaking me out, I have barely eaten today and have felt slightly off ever since it happened. So I said this morning at 11:30 AM will be 48 hours and I should know by then. And then of course, I went to bed at around 12AM and suddenly woke up from a dead sleep at 4AM (which always makes me believe I'm going to be sick) and to make matters worse I had been worrying that I might wake up sick in the middle of the night tonight because it would be just about at my 48 hour incubation period mark. Now it's 5:40AM. I'm tossing and turning, I don't feel good, my legs feel really restless like I can't sit still, and I'm unable to fall back asleep.
Am I sick? I've been awake for an hour an 40 minutes in the middle of the night and I feel like I've caught this virus. I don't know if I woke up because it was on my mind going to bed and I just have anxiety, but part of my brain is making me think THIS IS IT I feel so helpless right now, and I am so worried that I've caught this stomach bug. I was in a situation and I couldn't get out of it and I feel like I got too exposed. I don't know what to do or think right now. I just wish I would go back to sleep and forget this ever happened at work, or I wish I could just not let it bother me. This whole worrying and making myself feel terrible with anxiety is so horrible and it's seriously like torture waiting it out like this. I wish I wasn't the way I am. I just want to be better, and I really don't want to get sick. I am so scared tonight.