I'm having a really bad panic right now. Really, really freaked out. It's so selfish. I don't want to freak, but I also can't stop. My mom has come home from work (she works in a medical office, and although she's very good with hygiene, is often exposed) feeling brutally ill. Her stomach is hurting bad, she feels very nauseous. She said she almost v*d at the pharmacy. She had some tempura sushi for lunch, deep fried... I don't eat sushi or know anything about it, but she said it was quite heavy. She does have IBS so it could very well be that.
I'm being so selfish and panicking right now, thinking about myself instead of her. I truly want her to be okay, not just for the sake of my emetophobia. But of course emet-wise, I'm panicking. It's just the two of us in a 1200 sq/ft apartment. I am however leaving tomorrow for my aunts house, for 6 days. I'm afraid that the damage will have already been done, if this is in fact a bug. As she's already feeling s ill, she's likely contagious, especially if the actual symptoms start to kick in tonight. I know that all I can do, for myself, is wash my hands and try to stay calm. I know this. I also know there are various reasons why she could be unwell.
Paranoia wise thought, the last time she had a bad bug... it was on a weekend in June. I think it was near Father's Day, which is this upcoming weekend. Can't help but remain superstitious, as I'm totally out of my mind with panic right now. She very rarely v*s or feels sick to her stomach. Stomach aches? Yes. Nausea? Very rare.
I'm feeling sick with fear. She just said, "Oh god my stomach feels gross. I wanna just do something, one way or the other." I'm crying and shaking right now. I have to use the bathroom myself, but she's using mine right now. I'm to the point of paranoia and irrationality that I'm wanting to Lysol my whole bathroom down and scrub my hands. I wish I could leave tonight, as horrible as that is, but I have an exam tomorrow. I don't know how to stay calm right now.