..yes, its me again (last time for at least a week I hope!)
I havent really ate anything and barely drink anything in the past five days. Everything's spinning, my stomach feels like its caving, I can't really even focus on this message. And I'm not even sick. It's my stupid anxiety. I ate a tiny bit at lunch and dinner yesterday, and a tiny bit at lunch today, and then somewhat closer to a normal dinner today, but that's all I've eaten in the past FIVE DAYS. I probably drank one water bottle each day. I started off underweight (5'3", 16 year old female, 83 pounds), but NOT ANOREXIC, and I wanted to gain
but then whatever this is happened. I don't know how much I lost, my mom won't let me weigh myself, and she won't say why. I'm scared, there's pain in my temples, my ribs, and I can see my bones everywhere. I drank a bottle of water this evening, but I need to sleep and I can't drink much before I go sleep (its almost 2 am). I'm just really worried, because when my brother got really dehydrated, he had a seizure. I don't want that to happen to me, should I wake my mother even though I already did that once last week for that 3 am panic attack? Should I wait until my Thursday doctor's appointment? I just don't want something to happen to me, which will also stress out my mother even more, and I have school starting next week.