Hi everyone. I've been lurking this website for a couple years now and just decided to make an account and participate with discussion. I'm open to talking to anyone if anyone needs help or just someone to vent to.
I've been going through a really rough time. On 9/29, around 4:30 AM, my boyfriend (who lives with me) woke up v*ing. It was loud and violent. He went back to sleep around 5 AM, but was awake at 7 AM v*ing again. He told me he was dizzy and had a stomach ache. He was awake and dressed by noon, acting like nothing had happened. He ate some cheeseburgers later that night and seemed fine.
After at least three years of being strong and thinking I had conquered this beast called emetophobia, I was proved wrong. Since he was sick, I haven't slept a full night nor eaten a real meal. I've lost 7 pounds. I've been having random crying spells and feelings of hopelessness. I even scheduled an appointment with a therapist for next week, for CBT. I've missed one day of work and a day of school so far. In the beginning, I would eat and feel okay, I was just eating very little. It seemed as time went on, things got worse. I started only eating toast and rice. Now, I can't eat without feeling dizzy and n* and feeling like there's a lump in my throat. I can't sleep at night without waking up at least 3 times and having to find a friend who's awake to talk to until I fall back asleep. It is tiring. I'm not sure what's going on, and was hoping someone could give me a little insight into what I could possibly be experiencing.
I guess some questions I have are:
Is it possible I could still have/catch whatever he had? (I am very careful with handwashing/putting my hands in my mouth.)
Could I have messed up my digestive system?
Is my anxiety fooling my mind into thinking my digestive system is out of whack?
I'm excited and anxious to start CBT next week. Right now, I just need some quick support. I want a good night's sleep tonight.