Originally Posted by
rayvin400
"bathrooms scare me too much..."
when i was younger and thought that I was going to be sick I would never walk to the bathroom...because i felt that if i did it ment that I was giving up and that IT would happen then...but if i never walked in there i would not give up..which usually made for some messy situations however lol...[img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]
I don't want to put my head where someone else took a bowel movement. I think that concept is nasty... I think bathrooms are scary because they are small and confined - when I panic, I need to be able to get out and I can't get out if I'm in a bathroom sick.
I'm also afraid to go into the bathroom because then it is like I'm "giving in" - like what someone else said. Going in THERE makes it seem inevitable and freaks me out. I will sit with a trashcan before I'll sit in the bathroom. I am afraid the physical room will make me sick because that is where I know most people do get sick.
I always made it to the bathroom when I was a kid, at least the sink if not the toilet. As an adult, I'm petrifed that I won't know when my body is really going to be sick --- I don't know that part of me because I get false alarms all the time. I always locate trash cans and or bags I can use in case *it* happens and I can't get outside.
Why outside? If what I'm doing is really "natural", then I can be in the most "natural" of places to do it! I want to be where I can run or get away from it and myself, not be confined to a small place. I get so scared when I'm stuck in a place where I can't get out - so doing it outside makes me feel better in some weird way.
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