[tw: non-explicit/vague description of vomiting]

i haven't been on here in a really long time because i thought i was getting better, but about an hour ago my friend/roommate was sick while we were driving home. i pulled into a parking lot and her parents came to take her back to our place and clean my car. i was an absolute wreck and was starting to get better after i took my xanax but when she was sick i looked and now every time i close my eyes i remember it really vividly. i'm trying to take a nap but my brain won't let me stop thinking about it and i keep feeling like i'm going to have another panic attack. i guess my question is: does anyone have any good strategies for trying to keep my mind off what happened while trying to sleep?

i just feel terrible about not being able to help her at all but it's taking all of my effort not to break down again.