Telling the Difference
Hey folks!
Wanna say my sincerest consolations to those who are going through hell whether it's consistent dull n*, bugs, ill kids/family members, and all the associated deathly things to do with IT. Anyway, I thought it might be helpful to discuss or maybe share some ways to differentiate anxiety, anxiety n* and real n*... I feel like 2016 has been my recovery year as I am slowly but surely killing off any remains of emetophobia which haunted me everyday since 2014 when it peaked so much butttt since little twinges and 'threats' such as winter viruses, work related stress and other niggly things(I'm talking hormones..yay) are still passing by from time to time, I have been using each attack as a learning curve so I can train myself to calm down.
How do you guys differentiate between anxiety n* and real n*? On Tuesday I almost had a breakdown as I broke apart of my brace by biting into a piece of bacon, which cued an anxiety attack as I'm paying £1000 for this ... as soon as it broke in work, I discovered shortly after that the ATM had broken down which meant I couldn't get the bus down to the next bus I need to get to go home ... So I had to somehow NOT tick my boss off by leaving an hour early to walk down...all these three things sent me into a horrible anxious state and as it was the first in ages I almost cried. Queue the n*.
Just as I realised things couldn't get worse, I thought - "Maybe anxiety is the reason I'm GETTING worse." The more I speed-walked down town , the more n* I got and the whole forty minutes walk was a haze of people passing by me looking concerned. But then I stopped speed walking and asked myself
"Right Chlo. ARE you sick? Or are you completely fine and letting that anxious feeling get the better of you?" And so I did my trustee test where I swallow and confirm whether I'm actually n* or not...
Amazingly, each swallow I took, the more I realised I wasn't feeling sick at all. The second I arrived at my bus, I took ten deep breaths, hopped on as normal, stuck some music on and to be quite honest, felt amazing.....
Unfortunately it is my pms week and I do believe that part of the n* was that but! The more I told myself "override it. It's not even proper n*. Not worth fussing over. Save the anxiety for something else.." I know hypnosis is a tricky one, and one which personally has never worked for me during a real n* but if you're feeling horrific out of nowhere , try the test - really try pin down if it's n* you feel.. calming down will help 100x whether you feel sick or not...
Thoughts/stories/advice would be nice as I think we are in peak season for emet...
'Since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal'
2 Corinthians 4:18💜💜💜💜💜💜💜