really need some advice

[maleficaAnima]

i've been feeling really ill tonight and i don't know why.. it's been freaking me out so bad. i ended up waking up my mom, even though she got mad at me and isn't good at comforting, it was better than being alone.
i can't stop thinking about vomiting like it's the end of the world. like it's the worst possible thing i could be subjected to, ever - even like death would be better, sometimes, even though i know that's not true.,. it's driving me crazy
does anyone have any advice for calming down...?

[AoD]

It's a phobia. You need to see a therapist to help deal with it. They'll teach you methods of relaxing during panic attacks as well.