Hi everyone!
I am 18yo and last year i had my first panic attack and it wasn't the feeling of not being able to breath that terrified me but that i felt sick.Since i remember myself i was terrified with the idea of vomiting and i still remember every single time.After that day (panic attack) , i started to fell sick all day long, every day... especially under stress.the outcome was that i stopped going out,i never enjoy anything anymore outside because the idea of me vomiting infront of people was even worse than just the idea of V.

Now i am a university student and everyday i feel really nauseous and i always checking where the wc is before going in any classes and if it is far i totally freak out and cant concetrate even for a second in the class!Also at the lectures i always sit as close as possible next to the door and always at the last chair.The thing is that being a veterinary medicine student its imposiible to not see or smell things that will make you nauseaous and my biggest fear will happen in two days that i will go in the dessection room for anatomy!And trust me just the smell of the bones is disgusting, and i cant stop thinking about what will happen if i smell the dead animal.Sometimes you see disgusting things but you look at the animal and it looks at you and the only think going through my mind that time is what i can do to help but with just a part of animal just looking muscles that doesn't work or at least i think that it won't.The past couple of days i couldn't sleep just with the idea of ''having THE accident'' in front of my class or just having IT privately and i can't stop thinking about it and well that makes me nauseous!I was thinking about taking a vomit-stop pill before class, i dont know if it works for odours but having the thought that it helps i think it will make me less stressed about it. What can i do to stop thinking about it? i also thought about not going but that it isn't the solution and i will have to go next week so i cant avoid it but just the idea freaks me out!!

Anyway, I just accidently found the site and reading about my phobia and seeing that other peaple can understand it completly and not jugding it was really helpfull. I already feel better.I don't believe that it is a problem that people should or could jugde you about but it's definately a problem for us because it doesn't let us enjoyning all the parts of life,i mention that because i read somewhere that people feel bad about discussing it because they are afraid of being jugded .

Since i don't do anything outside if i decide to do something i choose something that i know that will make me happy so my mind will not think about well you know... That works for me but I still avoid trying...

Please, give me some advices.

Niki
(sorry for my english but it isn't my first language)