I know this sounds disgusting and triggering but it won't be... I was walking through town the other day remembering my last sv*, (at least the last one where I V*d) which was 2002 and was mystified to why i remember the night so clearly but when it came to d* i have absolutely no recollection... Most sv* come with both symptoms right? So it's full proof that d* isn't at all a phobia as i cant remember one single incident of it from my childhood bugs and yet, if i feel like I'm gonna have it these days i get very panicky to the point where I'll make myself feel n* from fear...Anybody else wiped out all d* memories?