I've been having really distressing nightmares about it recently. Sorry, I'm new so I'm not sure of which words and how much I should censor, but I will censor the words v* and similar words anyway.
So I have dreams about encountering piles of v* where I walk. I also have nightmares about a family member having to v* and giving us a warning so I can run out of the house while it happens. Sometimes I have dreams where I'm nauseous because I'm on a roller coaster or something moving very fast.
The thing about these nightmares, however, is that I'm more scared of v* in the dreams than I am in real life. It's a relief, but it also makes me wonder why I have this horrible fear of v* wired deep inside my subconscious. If I could somehow figure out more maybe I could even overcome this fear, hopefully.
Another thing that scares me about my sleep is sometimes I wake up n*. It makes me wonder if you can dream about v* and your body will actually do it. If so, that's terrifying and I'm terrified.