Hi all. For so many years I was debilitated by the fear, and it ruined my marriage. Hell, it ruined my life. I could touch or talk to anyone for fear of catching something. It destroyed a career I was proud of. Then I got a handle on it for quite awhile and then these last few months, my obsessive compulsions have gotten so much worse and I feel like I’m back to the beginning. I feel like I’ll never recover and this will own me forever. I’m getting remarried soon and my fiancé is amazing at understanding as much as he can, but it makes me feel damaged.
Does anyone have any advice? Pep talks? Hope?
Tonight is particularly tough for me. Couple panic attacks already at work. I’m so tired.