Or as my brain wants to tell me, they are there, they just don’t want to answer you. I am facing possibly getting sick and maybe *v, but for the quality of the rest of my life and I could use someone like me saying it can be done. That it is terrifying, but making sure that I stay sober so my children have one parent is worth several *v if that is what it takes. Other people say that and they don’t understand that I would rather die than get that sick, but if someone here really thinks I can get through it, maybe I will believe it.