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    Hello I haven't been here for a long time because I have been fine until recently. So I was accepted to stay for one week at my dream university and take a class there. It's an intense program but I thought I was able to handle it since my anxiety has been good. I had my medication with me so I thought nothing could stop me. Well I was wrong.
    Ever since I heard that people get sick from eating at the campus, I been worried about eating. So I only ate very little because I was afraid of the food there. Not only that but at night was also horrible because I could not fall asleep and my anxiety was very high at that time. I guess I should mention I have never been away from my parents so maybe that's why it was so high. Eventually I just feel anxious throughout the whole day to the point where I just gave up on day 4 (there were 10 days) and went home. I basically messed everything up thanks to my anxious. Tomorrow was suppose to be my ceremony but instead I am here just letting my anxiety beat me again. I am now afraid to try anything new because my anxiety will show up again. I am so mad at myself because I had people who were willing to help me but I left like a coward. I hate this phobia soooooo much it makes me wanna scaream. Sometimes I wonder if all this anxiety is ever worth it. Thank you all forr reading.

    TLDR: Went to take a course at my dream school for a week but I felt nothing but anxiety so I decide to leave the program and now I feel stuck.

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    Default Re: mad at myslef

    hi, i am in the SAME situation I hate myself right now but there is hope I think, I believe we can overcome this , in the past I have let my anxiety win but i dont want that happens anymore I know I can, If you want to talk about it .... when I get distracted from the fear or ratianal about it it makes me have hope.

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    Default Re: mad at myslef

    Yeah I get you. It goes away for a while but then it comes back. Worse is that it comes back when I am doing something new

 

 

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